The mom in me

I am always intrigued by the idea and reality of perception. I know that when we (people in general) see a tree, we all see a tree. But was is amazing is how everybody's past experiences, knowledge, judgements and thought paths all make a difference when you sit down with each person and get a different description, or feeling about the tree. Any way...I want to be a home with my kids, and I know that people looking a me from the outside feel that I should be more accepting and OK, happy, pleased appreciative, and thankful for where I am at. Full time job, no weekends or nights, benefits, happy kids, a car. How do I explain to someone that it was me who created all of my success and of course I am happy about it....but the person down the street, who gets to stay at home with her kids, doesn't have a job, lives in a bigger place than me, gets to buy better higher quality food than me... And here I am paying someone else to raise my kids. Is OK to stomp my foot and say "not fair!" In my most whiny voice ever. How do I get to have what the person down the street has? I want to be home with my babies... And they are almost too big to call babies. Why do I have to work so hard and have a less fulfilling life than the person down the street without the job? At home with the kiddos, teaching, and raising them how they want not how the babysitter wants. When I say I want more, what I really mean is I want more fulfillment. #frinkenomics101