I decided to go on the crazier side of things and bought land with a panel house to be built on it. It is all the way out in placerville and it is not complete yet. There are some days that I wonder if this was the correct path. It has been a longer process than my other options would have been.
I climb off the couch and step down the stairs. I open the door and stand in front of the Blue light train. I close my eyes and think about seeing future me and asking about the decision we made. I stick my hand out and close my eyes. I take a deep breath and step in to the light. I open my eyes. It is mid June out in Placerville. I am standing in front of a house that looks complete on the out side. I walk up to the house and open the door. I look around there are appliances in place in the kitchen, but the floor is still wood, with tarp over it. the furniture from out apartment is in the house, but it still has bare walls. I step into the bed room Future me is laying flooring in the bathroom.
"Hi" I say.
She pauses and sits back and takes a deep breath. but she doesn't turn around.
I ask "What do you think of our choice?"
"I never would have done this if I had got a house that was move in ready. I am learning so much that I would not have otherwise. I am going to be ready for buying rental properties when I am done with this because I will know how to put new stuff in. Even if I screw this one up."
"Are the kids happy?"
"They love that they get to be a part of creating our home. The drive is a little much, but we make it work."
"How about the money?" I ask.
"The total amount was ok..we are doing good."
Ok so we are happy?"
"Yes this is great!"
"How did we get the loan approvals for this?
"I really don't know. I just kept trying different things until one of them worked."
"Any advice for what I should be doing all the way back in Feb?
"Still buy the ticket to EOL, still put a deposit for the trip to Hawaii. You will be disappointed that you didn't and when you realize you still have the money it will be too late."
"Ok thank you!
"Your welcome" She responds.
I turned around and went into the kids bedrooms and then the Master bedroom, the kids were asleep in the bed. I turned around and went back outside and walked to the edge of the grass. I stepped into the thin veil and back onto the platform. Up the stairs and back to my living room.
Monday, February 26, 2018
Conversation part 3
I decided to stay in the apartment and funnel all my extra money into buying a rental property. It has been really stressful. I took my whole bonus, and some of my retirement and borrowed some money and bought a rental property. I am wanting to know if this is really the right way to go. I could have bought a house or a mobile, but I chose to stay here for now in my apartment. I need to know if this is the right choice to make. I am going to ask future me how things are going with this option. I walk down the stairs again and open the door. I stand in front of the blue light tunnel. I close my eyes and think about the future me early to mid June. I stick my hand out into the light and step in. I step out into the concrete. I am by a pool again. Future me is still reading. Did I accidentally go to the wrong one? I walk up to future me and ask"
..Hi did we buy a rental property?" Future me pauses her reading and sets the book down. She is staring into the pool and doesn't look up at me. "
We bought a rental property."
"Was it worth it I ask?"
She looks down at the book. The book has a bookmark in it. She pull it out of the book and looks at it. It is a check for some amount.
"This is our first rent check from the property we bought. It's not much but this a start."
"Are the kids happy?" I ask
"Yes..the possibility of having a house is still there and that is good."
"Are we doing ok money wise?"
"Yes, I'm getting a promotion so that will help."
"What made us decide not to buy something?"
"There wasn't a need to compromise what we wanted. Either have the house we want or stay."
"Where did we buy a place?" I asked
"We just needed to decide that was what we wanted. It will come up."
"OK thanks!"
"No problem." Future me says.
Future me sat back in her chair and kept reading. I looked at the pool and the boys were playing happily in the pool. I stepped into the veil and back to home.
..Hi did we buy a rental property?" Future me pauses her reading and sets the book down. She is staring into the pool and doesn't look up at me. "
We bought a rental property."
"Was it worth it I ask?"
She looks down at the book. The book has a bookmark in it. She pull it out of the book and looks at it. It is a check for some amount.
"This is our first rent check from the property we bought. It's not much but this a start."
"Are the kids happy?" I ask
"Yes..the possibility of having a house is still there and that is good."
"Are we doing ok money wise?"
"Yes, I'm getting a promotion so that will help."
"What made us decide not to buy something?"
"There wasn't a need to compromise what we wanted. Either have the house we want or stay."
"Where did we buy a place?" I asked
"We just needed to decide that was what we wanted. It will come up."
"OK thanks!"
"No problem." Future me says.
Future me sat back in her chair and kept reading. I looked at the pool and the boys were playing happily in the pool. I stepped into the veil and back to home.
Conversation with Future me part 2
I have decided to buy a mobile home instead of a house. This decision has weighed heavily on me because there are some things that having a house allows that just simply are not there with a mobile home. I wanted a dog and a yard for the kids to play. Those are just not going to happen at this time. But I still want to make sure that this was the right choice. I am going to visit my future self to see if we are happy with decision in the future.
I step off the couch and walk down the stairs, through the double doors. I pause at the Time Travel Train. I need to think about what I want and where I want tot go . I want to ask my future self whether we are happy with our decision to buy a mobile instead of a house. I close my eyes and think about how far in the future I want to ask. I choose June; mid June. I put my hand out and stick it into the blue light. I leave it there for a moment, thinking about my future self. I open my eyes and step into the blue light. I step out onto concrete. There is a pool there and it is hot outside. I turn, I am sitting at a table by the pool. I walk up to me.
I ask "Are we happy with buying a mobile instead of a house?"
Future me is reading a book and sets it down for a moment. I never actually look up at me.
"At least we have a pool." Future me says.
"Do we like the place?"
"Its nice"
"Are we saving money?"
"Not as much as we wanted to."
"Are the kids happy?" I ask
"Yes..though they don't know what its like to have a house and a yard. I feel like I stole that opportunity from them."
"How is the commute?"
"Its easy."
"Do you regret buying mobile instead of a house?"
"No, its just hard trying to convince the kids why this is better."
"Ok thank you" I reply.
"Your welcome." Future me picks up he book again and goes back to reading. I walked to the edge of the concrete and stepped through the thin veil into the blue light and back onto the platform, through the door, up the stairs and back to the couch.
I step off the couch and walk down the stairs, through the double doors. I pause at the Time Travel Train. I need to think about what I want and where I want tot go . I want to ask my future self whether we are happy with our decision to buy a mobile instead of a house. I close my eyes and think about how far in the future I want to ask. I choose June; mid June. I put my hand out and stick it into the blue light. I leave it there for a moment, thinking about my future self. I open my eyes and step into the blue light. I step out onto concrete. There is a pool there and it is hot outside. I turn, I am sitting at a table by the pool. I walk up to me.
I ask "Are we happy with buying a mobile instead of a house?"
Future me is reading a book and sets it down for a moment. I never actually look up at me.
"At least we have a pool." Future me says.
"Do we like the place?"
"Its nice"
"Are we saving money?"
"Not as much as we wanted to."
"Are the kids happy?" I ask
"Yes..though they don't know what its like to have a house and a yard. I feel like I stole that opportunity from them."
"How is the commute?"
"Its easy."
"Do you regret buying mobile instead of a house?"
"No, its just hard trying to convince the kids why this is better."
"Ok thank you" I reply.
"Your welcome." Future me picks up he book again and goes back to reading. I walked to the edge of the concrete and stepped through the thin veil into the blue light and back onto the platform, through the door, up the stairs and back to the couch.
Conversation with future me.
Conversation with future me.
I am not really sure if I need to travel to the future to speak to future me or not. I take a deep breath. I climb off the couch and walk down a flight of stairs. I run my hands along the wood paneling on the walls. I stop at the door at the bottom of the stairs. I think to myself that I need to go just a few moths a head in the future. June in the beginning o June June 3rd. I focus on the date. I pull the heavy door open towards me. I feel the cool whoosh past me. I step onto the platform. The blue train size tube of energy is zooming past me. I look around in the pictures that are floating in the blue zooming light. The pictures go slower than the light does. I focus on June 3rd 2018 A picture stops in front of me. I can feel the flicker of my mind trying to take over. I stop. I close my eyes. I let the picture go back in the blue light. I let the air continue to blow by me. I put my hand out into the blue light I open my eyes. I step into the picture before I can think too much about it it. I am standing at work. I look around I am parked in the same place. It is warm outside. I turn around and step back into the blue light and step onto the platform. ..hmmm what I am wanting to know from future me is if I bought a house, or mobile, or nothing and stayed in my apartment. I take another deep breath. I think to myself and ask.... I need to know which one I chose. I step back in to the light. I am at work again. I am standing outside my car. Future me is in my car on her phone...probably scrolling through Facebook. The car is on and the window is rolled up. Future me answers without looking up from the phone "..Why do you need to know?"
"I want to stop stressing about it now" I reply.
"We get a house."
"Is it what we wanted?" I ask.
"Mostly."
"What is wrong with it?"
"Its small, but we are making it work." Future me sighs.
"Do we regret it?"
"A little."
"Should I buy a place or not?"
"Maybe it will be better further in the future" future me says.
"Should I try more for a mobile?"
"I dont know .."
"Is the house close to here?"
"Close to school. Not here."
"If I buy a mobile will I change the future?"
"I guess that is how it works."
"Ok thank you.."
"Yup. no problem."
"You don't seem happy."
"I hate this job remember...haha"
"Oh yea I forgot."
I turn and step back into the blue light and I am back on the platform. I open the door, walk up the stairs to my couch.
I am not really sure if I need to travel to the future to speak to future me or not. I take a deep breath. I climb off the couch and walk down a flight of stairs. I run my hands along the wood paneling on the walls. I stop at the door at the bottom of the stairs. I think to myself that I need to go just a few moths a head in the future. June in the beginning o June June 3rd. I focus on the date. I pull the heavy door open towards me. I feel the cool whoosh past me. I step onto the platform. The blue train size tube of energy is zooming past me. I look around in the pictures that are floating in the blue zooming light. The pictures go slower than the light does. I focus on June 3rd 2018 A picture stops in front of me. I can feel the flicker of my mind trying to take over. I stop. I close my eyes. I let the picture go back in the blue light. I let the air continue to blow by me. I put my hand out into the blue light I open my eyes. I step into the picture before I can think too much about it it. I am standing at work. I look around I am parked in the same place. It is warm outside. I turn around and step back into the blue light and step onto the platform. ..hmmm what I am wanting to know from future me is if I bought a house, or mobile, or nothing and stayed in my apartment. I take another deep breath. I think to myself and ask.... I need to know which one I chose. I step back in to the light. I am at work again. I am standing outside my car. Future me is in my car on her phone...probably scrolling through Facebook. The car is on and the window is rolled up. Future me answers without looking up from the phone "..Why do you need to know?"
"I want to stop stressing about it now" I reply.
"We get a house."
"Is it what we wanted?" I ask.
"Mostly."
"What is wrong with it?"
"Its small, but we are making it work." Future me sighs.
"Do we regret it?"
"A little."
"Should I buy a place or not?"
"Maybe it will be better further in the future" future me says.
"Should I try more for a mobile?"
"I dont know .."
"Is the house close to here?"
"Close to school. Not here."
"If I buy a mobile will I change the future?"
"I guess that is how it works."
"Ok thank you.."
"Yup. no problem."
"You don't seem happy."
"I hate this job remember...haha"
"Oh yea I forgot."
I turn and step back into the blue light and I am back on the platform. I open the door, walk up the stairs to my couch.
Friday, February 23, 2018
Conversations with my soul. Part 4
I need to talk to my soul again. I need more guidance. I have questions. I need clarification. I fear making a wrong turn. There is no way for me to know the alternate path. I can only imagine what the different outcomes would be. This path is the only one I can see.
I climb off my couch. I step up onto the platform behind me. I walk up until I can see the vegetation I can see the narrow path. I start walking up the path. It is warm and sunny today. Normally it is cold and gloomy. I weave my way through the bushes that hang over the path. It is steep and I have to lean forward to keep my balance. I push dead branches out of the way as I make my way to the top of the path. I see the opening in the path as it opens up to a clearing at the edge of the lake . There is fine ground rocks and some old pieces of wood that have been pushed to the shore. The wood not the sand. The gravelly sand is there in a small clearing. The other part of the lake has grass all the way to the edge of the water. I look across the lake.
"Hello!" I call out. "Are you here?"
I look to the far edge of the lake where my soul took me last time. The land curves away to where I can no longer see the path. I focused my sights there and waited.
"I'm here!" I hear a voice call out.
I wait. She rounds the corner of the path across the lake. I look down at the waters edge. I imagine a boat there and slowly I see the air swirl around as a boat appears to be being built from dust in the air. When it is complete I step into the boat. I focus my sights on the opposite edge of the lake. The boat seems to just know that is where I want to go. It pushes through the water to other edge. I climb out of the boat. I remember that last time I had my mind interfere with what I was trying to hear and see. I focus on my surroundings. And I try to stay focused on my questions.
My soul runs up to me. "What are you doing here today? I wasn't expecting you today."
"I know I wasn't planning on visiting so soon. I need more answers."
She looks at me .. "OK what do you need?"
"My questions are: What am I training for? What do I need to focus on? When should I start? What kind of training am I doing? Physical, Mental, emotional, educational, vocational? There are too many options I need help to focus. What happens if I train in the wrong area?"
She laughs out loud. Inwardly, I have a little awkward feeling. I have much anxiety about these things. She looks at me. "You know you're me right?
" ...Well yes..technically." I reply
"Not technical...you are me. You choose to hide under your veil."
"Why do you not choose to hide?" I ask
"Because I chose freedom." She said.
"But you are me; did we not both choose freedom?" I asked; feeling perplexed.
"You chose earth. I chose a different...earth place. We chose."
"Is earth harder to take off the veil? " I ask
"...no it is harder for you than for me. Hmmm let me think of your questions for a moment. Don't add your thoughts to mine ... let me contemplate." She pauses and steps back. I am back in my living room for a moment chatting with my kids. I hear her start to talk so I jump back to the lake..
"Just as you answered yourself; you need to train physically. It will hep with mental focus. You need to train and practice living on earth. You cannot hide until its over. Write more think less."
"What is my goal?"....
"There is not a goal.. there is a pattern of evolving. There is people to connect to and paths to clear for others. Doors to open and soulful practice of healthy beliefs. To concrete the healthy patterns, so as to not need to repeat learning them again. You can set goals for yourself to help you, but not as an end result. You need to understand the patterns of growth are not set. Focus on reaching for a feeling and keeping it here. Write your new belief. and practice it. There are events that are going to occur and you will do best with training." She stops for a moment. "Your thoughts are merging with mine. give me a moment."
I pause and I lean down a dip my fingers in the water. It is cold and clear. There is grass growing on the edge of the lake. I can see small fish darting around in the grass in the water. I look up at my soul... she is prancing around in circles and humming a tune. I look down and feel the water on my fingers. so cold and refreshing. I look up and she walks up to me again.
"You need to focus on your feet. stay on the ground. talk to people. Set up a healthy pattern for your family. Reach for more earth knowledge. The soul already knows what you need to remember. Let me speak through you while you are on earth not just here. All the things that you dream of ...pick one... and bring it to life. Then the next one. Don't try all at once. Learn then use it. Don't try to learn all first. Did I mention you need to write more? You need to grow out from the veil. It hides you very well. Your light is blocked completely from here. I can only see you when you are here. You will understand when you pull it off what I mean. But If I tell you each step the path will change."
"I have another question: on the earth that you live are we with our soul mate?" I ask..
"No I am waiting for us to catch up to each other. That is a journey we take together. when we are both whole."
"Am I not whole now?" I ask. "I feel like a whole person..."
"Your soul is hiding.... whole ..not like fruit, but like all the cylinders on a car working; all the tires inflated evenly. All the rooms cleaned during spring... does this make sense?"
"Yes.... So the first step?"
"You will see... the mundane things save space for the rest of it." She answers.
"Do I start tomorrow?" I ask...as I feel my anxiety rise in my chest.
"You cannot grow a plant in a day.... Maybe you can plant the seed... or pull the weeds where you want to plant... maybe a tree or rocks are in the way and you need to remove them first.... Maybe if you write it down. Not goals..patterns of success...with limitless outcomes... with a leap that is freedom, with patterns after that, that you can't plan yet.."
"Do you have bad days on your earth?" I ask
"Yes...my freedom was hard fought, but the blanket on my earth is not as heavy as yours. It takes less time, energy, emotion and fight to gain freedom."
"How can 1 soul split? I ask.
"With out a long story... we chose to divide and conquer. Not all souls do. Some splinter. Earth has been hard. This time is better with a tether to my earth. I can't explain more yet."
"Do you travel in time? I ask
"Yes." She replies.
"Can you actually leave your earth?" I ask.
"Yes, but again my earth is not as heavy." She says.
"Will I be able to travel like that?"
"I cannot say... it depends. It is not a end goal nor a focus for our soul to master. As long as you do not hide behind it." She says.
I take a deep sigh. "OK."
"Do not leave here disappointed. You came for answers, they should be without expectation of answer. Go home and write the patterns down that you want to have, write down the belief you want and why. write down the emotions you want to feel, and what they are brought from. Write why you want to travel and where. Write it down until it is clear where you are in your gardening process. Think about how long it takes for a plant to grow. Draw a garden if you must. Plan out what you want it to look like. design it, then create it. And remember it is yours and your alone, but all of those you want in your life must have a place in, and space in your garden. You need to plan, and train."
I thank my soul for her/our /my help. I give her a hug and for a moment our soul is one. I try to feel the lightness and freedom as it is a part of me for a moment. I can feel the veil over me. I step back and thank her again.
She laughs. "Of course." "Be sure and let me know when you meet him. I know where he is on my earth. I am just waiting for you."
I laugh .."OK I will come tell you. Gosh will I know when I meet him?"
She laughs...not at first. But as you tether yourself to your memories they will resonate with him. HE will know. Don't let that go."
"OK sounds good" I reply.
I turn around and walk to the boat. I climb in and enjoy the cruise across the lake with the warm air blowing my hair. I climb out and start on the path down the away from the lake. I go quickly. I can see my couch at the bottom of the trail I step onto my couch and back to my living room.
I climb off my couch. I step up onto the platform behind me. I walk up until I can see the vegetation I can see the narrow path. I start walking up the path. It is warm and sunny today. Normally it is cold and gloomy. I weave my way through the bushes that hang over the path. It is steep and I have to lean forward to keep my balance. I push dead branches out of the way as I make my way to the top of the path. I see the opening in the path as it opens up to a clearing at the edge of the lake . There is fine ground rocks and some old pieces of wood that have been pushed to the shore. The wood not the sand. The gravelly sand is there in a small clearing. The other part of the lake has grass all the way to the edge of the water. I look across the lake.
"Hello!" I call out. "Are you here?"
I look to the far edge of the lake where my soul took me last time. The land curves away to where I can no longer see the path. I focused my sights there and waited.
"I'm here!" I hear a voice call out.
I wait. She rounds the corner of the path across the lake. I look down at the waters edge. I imagine a boat there and slowly I see the air swirl around as a boat appears to be being built from dust in the air. When it is complete I step into the boat. I focus my sights on the opposite edge of the lake. The boat seems to just know that is where I want to go. It pushes through the water to other edge. I climb out of the boat. I remember that last time I had my mind interfere with what I was trying to hear and see. I focus on my surroundings. And I try to stay focused on my questions.
My soul runs up to me. "What are you doing here today? I wasn't expecting you today."
"I know I wasn't planning on visiting so soon. I need more answers."
She looks at me .. "OK what do you need?"
"My questions are: What am I training for? What do I need to focus on? When should I start? What kind of training am I doing? Physical, Mental, emotional, educational, vocational? There are too many options I need help to focus. What happens if I train in the wrong area?"
She laughs out loud. Inwardly, I have a little awkward feeling. I have much anxiety about these things. She looks at me. "You know you're me right?
" ...Well yes..technically." I reply
"Not technical...you are me. You choose to hide under your veil."
"Why do you not choose to hide?" I ask
"Because I chose freedom." She said.
"But you are me; did we not both choose freedom?" I asked; feeling perplexed.
"You chose earth. I chose a different...earth place. We chose."
"Is earth harder to take off the veil? " I ask
"...no it is harder for you than for me. Hmmm let me think of your questions for a moment. Don't add your thoughts to mine ... let me contemplate." She pauses and steps back. I am back in my living room for a moment chatting with my kids. I hear her start to talk so I jump back to the lake..
"Just as you answered yourself; you need to train physically. It will hep with mental focus. You need to train and practice living on earth. You cannot hide until its over. Write more think less."
"What is my goal?"....
"There is not a goal.. there is a pattern of evolving. There is people to connect to and paths to clear for others. Doors to open and soulful practice of healthy beliefs. To concrete the healthy patterns, so as to not need to repeat learning them again. You can set goals for yourself to help you, but not as an end result. You need to understand the patterns of growth are not set. Focus on reaching for a feeling and keeping it here. Write your new belief. and practice it. There are events that are going to occur and you will do best with training." She stops for a moment. "Your thoughts are merging with mine. give me a moment."
I pause and I lean down a dip my fingers in the water. It is cold and clear. There is grass growing on the edge of the lake. I can see small fish darting around in the grass in the water. I look up at my soul... she is prancing around in circles and humming a tune. I look down and feel the water on my fingers. so cold and refreshing. I look up and she walks up to me again.
"You need to focus on your feet. stay on the ground. talk to people. Set up a healthy pattern for your family. Reach for more earth knowledge. The soul already knows what you need to remember. Let me speak through you while you are on earth not just here. All the things that you dream of ...pick one... and bring it to life. Then the next one. Don't try all at once. Learn then use it. Don't try to learn all first. Did I mention you need to write more? You need to grow out from the veil. It hides you very well. Your light is blocked completely from here. I can only see you when you are here. You will understand when you pull it off what I mean. But If I tell you each step the path will change."
"I have another question: on the earth that you live are we with our soul mate?" I ask..
"No I am waiting for us to catch up to each other. That is a journey we take together. when we are both whole."
"Am I not whole now?" I ask. "I feel like a whole person..."
"Your soul is hiding.... whole ..not like fruit, but like all the cylinders on a car working; all the tires inflated evenly. All the rooms cleaned during spring... does this make sense?"
"Yes.... So the first step?"
"You will see... the mundane things save space for the rest of it." She answers.
"Do I start tomorrow?" I ask...as I feel my anxiety rise in my chest.
"You cannot grow a plant in a day.... Maybe you can plant the seed... or pull the weeds where you want to plant... maybe a tree or rocks are in the way and you need to remove them first.... Maybe if you write it down. Not goals..patterns of success...with limitless outcomes... with a leap that is freedom, with patterns after that, that you can't plan yet.."
"Do you have bad days on your earth?" I ask
"Yes...my freedom was hard fought, but the blanket on my earth is not as heavy as yours. It takes less time, energy, emotion and fight to gain freedom."
"How can 1 soul split? I ask.
"With out a long story... we chose to divide and conquer. Not all souls do. Some splinter. Earth has been hard. This time is better with a tether to my earth. I can't explain more yet."
"Do you travel in time? I ask
"Yes." She replies.
"Can you actually leave your earth?" I ask.
"Yes, but again my earth is not as heavy." She says.
"Will I be able to travel like that?"
"I cannot say... it depends. It is not a end goal nor a focus for our soul to master. As long as you do not hide behind it." She says.
I take a deep sigh. "OK."
"Do not leave here disappointed. You came for answers, they should be without expectation of answer. Go home and write the patterns down that you want to have, write down the belief you want and why. write down the emotions you want to feel, and what they are brought from. Write why you want to travel and where. Write it down until it is clear where you are in your gardening process. Think about how long it takes for a plant to grow. Draw a garden if you must. Plan out what you want it to look like. design it, then create it. And remember it is yours and your alone, but all of those you want in your life must have a place in, and space in your garden. You need to plan, and train."
I thank my soul for her/our /my help. I give her a hug and for a moment our soul is one. I try to feel the lightness and freedom as it is a part of me for a moment. I can feel the veil over me. I step back and thank her again.
She laughs. "Of course." "Be sure and let me know when you meet him. I know where he is on my earth. I am just waiting for you."
I laugh .."OK I will come tell you. Gosh will I know when I meet him?"
She laughs...not at first. But as you tether yourself to your memories they will resonate with him. HE will know. Don't let that go."
"OK sounds good" I reply.
I turn around and walk to the boat. I climb in and enjoy the cruise across the lake with the warm air blowing my hair. I climb out and start on the path down the away from the lake. I go quickly. I can see my couch at the bottom of the trail I step onto my couch and back to my living room.
Tuesday, February 13, 2018
Kylego into reality
Kylego for Wed, Thurs, Fri Feb 14,15,16................................................................................
Wednesday started out great...I actually followed my schedule almost perfectly. It felt good. We all got out of the house smoothly. My day at work could have been stressful but I insisted on being positive all day. I got a lot accomplished. After my piano lesson and a great dinner with the ex... I was proud of myself for being able to articulate my boundaries. When I got home I dived into writing for my Crime Lab blog and got more content up. I also got to watch a great video of Kyle's about entrepreneur ship. It is going to help immensely. Thursday morning I got up early, and decided to buy a lottery ticket and a scratcher. After a GREAT day at work with many accomplishments I went to look at houses. None of the ones we looked at were great. But it was ok...they just weren't the right ones. Friday I was super proud of myself because I was still on schedule!! Off to school and work. I taught class all day, and the day zipped by. I got a call from the realtor about a house coming on the market. In the area I wanted and the size I wanted. I went to go see it and loved it and put an offer on it right then...yay!! Then I went to the store to check my lottery ticket.................I won. Not like a little bit................but like 3 million dollars won.....................I am still so freaking shocked. I wont actually feel real until I see the first check. It will be here in 6 weeks!!!!!!!!!!
Luckily I totally screwed this up. On Wednesday morning, I accidentally turned off my alarm and slept in until 6:30am.... Sheer panic set in as me and the kids scrambled to get ready for school. I can barely remember what I did at work. I accomplished very little. I had a lot of meetings that day I guess I did get some stuff accomplished at work. My piano lesson was great. Dinner was great, and I didn't even need to articulate my boundaries. There was no push or awkward requests made. However I didn't get home until 11pm...No videos watched, nothing typed...just straight to bed.
Thursday...I hit the snooze button religiously for an hour maybe two. My realtor had a place for me to look at first thing in the morning. So off I went to see that ..I actually liked it for a hot second. And all the other viewings got cancelled....And NO I didn't buy a lottery or Scratcher ticket.
Friday.. another snooze button fest in the morning. I did teach class all day... no call from the realtor because he went out if town for the weekend.
Even though I didn't kylego Saturday...I'm adding it on anyway. I hit the snooze button for along time today too. I drank a whole pot of coffee before I went to work. I taught class all day. Got home and promptly fell asleep. I still need to clean, practice piano, did I mention clean? and type some blog stuff. And of course...Kylego either a crazier week ahead, or a more realistic one. I wanted all these to happen, but they weren't meant to. I need to tune into more of the meant to than want to's.
Wednesday started out great...I actually followed my schedule almost perfectly. It felt good. We all got out of the house smoothly. My day at work could have been stressful but I insisted on being positive all day. I got a lot accomplished. After my piano lesson and a great dinner with the ex... I was proud of myself for being able to articulate my boundaries. When I got home I dived into writing for my Crime Lab blog and got more content up. I also got to watch a great video of Kyle's about entrepreneur ship. It is going to help immensely. Thursday morning I got up early, and decided to buy a lottery ticket and a scratcher. After a GREAT day at work with many accomplishments I went to look at houses. None of the ones we looked at were great. But it was ok...they just weren't the right ones. Friday I was super proud of myself because I was still on schedule!! Off to school and work. I taught class all day, and the day zipped by. I got a call from the realtor about a house coming on the market. In the area I wanted and the size I wanted. I went to go see it and loved it and put an offer on it right then...yay!! Then I went to the store to check my lottery ticket.................I won. Not like a little bit................but like 3 million dollars won.....................I am still so freaking shocked. I wont actually feel real until I see the first check. It will be here in 6 weeks!!!!!!!!!!
Luckily I totally screwed this up. On Wednesday morning, I accidentally turned off my alarm and slept in until 6:30am.... Sheer panic set in as me and the kids scrambled to get ready for school. I can barely remember what I did at work. I accomplished very little. I had a lot of meetings that day I guess I did get some stuff accomplished at work. My piano lesson was great. Dinner was great, and I didn't even need to articulate my boundaries. There was no push or awkward requests made. However I didn't get home until 11pm...No videos watched, nothing typed...just straight to bed.
Thursday...I hit the snooze button religiously for an hour maybe two. My realtor had a place for me to look at first thing in the morning. So off I went to see that ..I actually liked it for a hot second. And all the other viewings got cancelled....And NO I didn't buy a lottery or Scratcher ticket.
Friday.. another snooze button fest in the morning. I did teach class all day... no call from the realtor because he went out if town for the weekend.
Even though I didn't kylego Saturday...I'm adding it on anyway. I hit the snooze button for along time today too. I drank a whole pot of coffee before I went to work. I taught class all day. Got home and promptly fell asleep. I still need to clean, practice piano, did I mention clean? and type some blog stuff. And of course...Kylego either a crazier week ahead, or a more realistic one. I wanted all these to happen, but they weren't meant to. I need to tune into more of the meant to than want to's.
Wednesday, February 7, 2018
Travel to Ireland....for 2 seconds
If I were to travel in time...where would I go? Hmmm.....I would want to go somewhere I knew looked different from here. I want to be able to physically feel things and speak...without messing up the timeline. I want to see an actual portal that I can step through. For now I will practice traveling in my etheric self.
I walk down a flight of stairs. They are wood, with wood paneling on the walls. There are double doors at the bottom of the stairs. They are a brick red color. There is not a door knob, just a red handle. I pull open the door and step past the door. There is a blue light racing by in front of me. I can't see any ground past the landing I am standing on. Besides the blue light, it is dark. The blue light whooshing by reaches high above the overhang, but I see the dark above it. I look down either direction.. It looks like a train station.. or a subway... the blue light zooming past can be seen as far as I can see in either direction. I look at the blue light...there are images that float past pretty quickly. It appears to be hollow in the center of the blue light . I look at the images to see if I recognize anything...hmmm I see some familiar memories. I look up at the images towards the top. I am having a hard time focusing. My kids are talking and asking questions. I am trying to stay there but I cant stay focused. ...............................the images look like movie clips.....old movies, nature movies, I am trying not to focus on movies...... where do I want to go?.......Ireland. I had a dream many moons ago about a woman. I start to search the images for Ireland...The images stop. The one in front of me is green grass, with some hills, it is cold outside, there are low clouds on the horizon, and high clouds above me. I step into the image. The ground is solid under my shoes, I question whether I should go further...its flippin cold. I step further in, and look back behind me. I want to come home when I'm done. I can see a shadow of the doors and the landing platform I was standing on. It was more like shadows playing tricks on the eyes. The clouds moved more and the shadow was gone. I turn back around. I look to my left ....in the distance I can see some buildings one of them has some smoke coming out of the chimney. To my right...rocks, grass, and the hill slowly goes down. Looking forward it looks like the edge of the slope right in front of me but as I step forward I can see the rolling hills continue out in front of me for awhile. I take a step, the ground is cold under my feet. I'm not sure what I should do now. I don't want to go to the houses, but going forward there is nothing. I decide to head home. As soon as I thought it, it was like the images were on rewind. Everything zipped backwards and I was at the top of the stairs. I turned around and stepped into bed.
I walk down a flight of stairs. They are wood, with wood paneling on the walls. There are double doors at the bottom of the stairs. They are a brick red color. There is not a door knob, just a red handle. I pull open the door and step past the door. There is a blue light racing by in front of me. I can't see any ground past the landing I am standing on. Besides the blue light, it is dark. The blue light whooshing by reaches high above the overhang, but I see the dark above it. I look down either direction.. It looks like a train station.. or a subway... the blue light zooming past can be seen as far as I can see in either direction. I look at the blue light...there are images that float past pretty quickly. It appears to be hollow in the center of the blue light . I look at the images to see if I recognize anything...hmmm I see some familiar memories. I look up at the images towards the top. I am having a hard time focusing. My kids are talking and asking questions. I am trying to stay there but I cant stay focused. ...............................the images look like movie clips.....old movies, nature movies, I am trying not to focus on movies...... where do I want to go?.......Ireland. I had a dream many moons ago about a woman. I start to search the images for Ireland...The images stop. The one in front of me is green grass, with some hills, it is cold outside, there are low clouds on the horizon, and high clouds above me. I step into the image. The ground is solid under my shoes, I question whether I should go further...its flippin cold. I step further in, and look back behind me. I want to come home when I'm done. I can see a shadow of the doors and the landing platform I was standing on. It was more like shadows playing tricks on the eyes. The clouds moved more and the shadow was gone. I turn back around. I look to my left ....in the distance I can see some buildings one of them has some smoke coming out of the chimney. To my right...rocks, grass, and the hill slowly goes down. Looking forward it looks like the edge of the slope right in front of me but as I step forward I can see the rolling hills continue out in front of me for awhile. I take a step, the ground is cold under my feet. I'm not sure what I should do now. I don't want to go to the houses, but going forward there is nothing. I decide to head home. As soon as I thought it, it was like the images were on rewind. Everything zipped backwards and I was at the top of the stairs. I turned around and stepped into bed.
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